I finally managed to get to bed at a decent time last night – 1:30am. The sleep was so good and I thought that I might even be so tired, I’d sleep past my 7am alarm. I was wrong. In the most diabolical manor possible my sleep was interrupted. To start, my dream was getting so interesting and if I’m being honest, I think the crazy winds was influencing it because I dreamt of trains. Anywhoot, what woke me up at 6:04am was our trash man barreling down the street. I JUMPED UP!
See, last week I wasn’t home on trash day. The person who was here said they didn’t take it and that’s believable because it’s happened several times. But, I forgot to take it out because I thought we were on holiday schedule this week. Turns out, they weren’t Colombus day isn’t a holiday they push back trash pick up for. Anyways, I RUSHED out of the house barefoot, no panties, just a very short camisole nightie and wild hair. I was so embarrassed, they definitely caught me slippin’.
I thought I could get away with putting my trash on the other side of the street but for the first time ever that side was already empty. You could say I was really irritated about that. Especially because my lovely partner was tucked so warmly in the bed with no worries and TRASH is THEIR job. Later in the day I did manage to get in contact with someone who came and picked it up.
But, the trash people weren’t the only person who caught me slippin’. So did my website host. See, I haven’t paid my bill this month. I’ve been seeing the emails come through but, out of pure laziness I haven’t opened up my wallet and got those people paid. I did make a note yesterday that I had to pay it but I was so tired when I remembered I just put it off. Well guess what? They suspended my shit. LOL. I rushed to pay and I was in a panic because I thought “I’m going to miss my blogtober post!”.
Overall, even through the few mistakes I made today I did get a lot of important things done. When I woke me kids up I managed to get both of their hair done this morning. I mailed off mail to my brother and my cousin. I got my daughter her dentist appointment scheduled. I even went through and rearranged my sisters things in the garage. Not everything was went through but enough was. It’s so hard going through her things. It’s hard to realize that this stuff is all I have left of her. Honestly, I break down every chance I get a second to myself. But, today was a good day. I was productive today.
I won’t hold you, its early its only 9pm and I am super tired. I’ve been up all day -no naps (unless you count the ten minute nap I took in the Walmart parking lot). Which is amazing because yesterday I slept so much. I think I put in atleast 16 hours of sleep. Granted it was broken up but, baby I was out like a light. Hopefully, me being tired now just means I’m falling back into a regular routine.
Grieving takes so much out of you and in unexpected ways. I know I’ve mentioned it before how physically tired I have been. But, I just really have to press the issue home, how this saddness is literally weighing me down.
Anyways, tomorrow I’m going to tell you about the book I finished today. I can’t wait to talk about it with you! Chat soon