As I was sitting here drinking my morning coffee a thought about Blogtober occurred to me. A very simple thought that I wish I had at the beginning of all this which is that each day is an opportunity to shine! Instead, because of everything I’ve been going through I looked as each day basically as survive and finding gratitude in the fact that at least I showed up. Which goes to say that here we are on Day 29 and I may have learned a lesson from blogtober -always take an opportunity to shine.
While you might be following along and getting and idea of what I’m experiencing in this stage of life, you aren’t really getting to know me. You’re just watching me try not to sink. And right now as I reflect on all the posts I’ve half-assed written and lack of effort I’ve put into this thing I’m utterly embarrassed. While I’m proud that I did make it in for 29 days so far I just can’t believe I didn’t utilize this in the best way that I could.
I’ve mentioned before that I hate saying what my plans for the day are since lately it feels like the universe allows puts me on a different path. However, today I think I do want to go back and look through everything and try to make it better. Looking back on this journey and cringing about what I posted is not something I want to do.
The good thing is even if I was lackluster in my approach I do have one solid reason. I DIDN’T DECIDE TO DO THIS UNTIL OCTOBER 1ST. So, there was no plan, I was doing this day by day with nothing prewritten, no calendar of what to write. I literally just showed up and spoke about whatever. And I feel like I could easily do this again if I had a plan. Maybe blogmas? who knows.
Anyways, I just wanted you guys to know that the person you’ve been following along with has been in survival mode! I can’t wait to show up as my genuine self in normal, relaxed, mode. Until then though! Make sure you’re following along on Youtube. I didn’t do much on Tiktok and that’s okay. I can tell by the lack of followes I’ve gained on Youtube I produced ABSOLUTE TRASH but, again that’s fine. Showing up was my goal.
My next goal is definitely going to be creating helpful content for everyone.
Until next time!